the so called life i sometimes live

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 05:05:30 GMT

I cut my hair I no longer have long hair
it is very short short short like army short
short
I'm going to mexico city and cancun for spring break.
I'm going to coachella well that's what I always say but this time I already have a hotel.
50dlls a night in palm springs
It has 2 bathrooms with jacuzzi jets, 2 bedrooms, balcony, full kitchen, TV blah blah blah

the quiz

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 01:10:52 GMT

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1) Does acidxrose do drugs? i think
2) What is toy_machine allergic to? to fat & ugly people
3) Is aquirgo in a relationship? she says no
4) Is claradicali a nerd? no
5) What exotic animal would bananamagic like as a pet? a moneky
6) Thoughts on youneverwere? none
7) What video game does __marlene remind you of? dont play
8) What song/movie would you recommend to _heartofdust? thank heaven for you by esthero
9) Would you set up claradicali and flylcarusfly? never
10) Would you ever date youneverwere? no thanks
11) What would aquirgo think of flylcarusfly? cute little curls
12) What would toy_machine give bananamagic for his/her birthday? a dancing dildo
13) What is happy_as_a_clam's favorite movie? strawberry shortcake part 2
14) Is flylcarusfly athletic? he used to run
15) What do you agree with happy_as_a_clam about? her monroe piercing
16) What comic book character would claradicali be? the prissy one
17) Does bananamagic go to your school? yes
18) Where was __marlene born? san diego
19) Are toy_machine and bananamagic going out? no but they made out
20) If youneverwere took over the world, who would suffer? all
21) What rank would bananamagic have in a giant robot army? top of the top
22) Do you think youneverwere is hot? his right finer is
23) If acidxrose was a superhero, who would be his/her archnemesis? catwomen
24) How long have you known bananamagic? 3 years
25) Does _heartofdust travel a lot? she went on a long ass roadtrip but no
26) What languages does happy_as_a_clam speak? spanish english french and 6 words in italian
27) Does acidxrose drink? too much
28) Which of your friends should acidxrose go out with? none
29) What color should toy_machine dye their hair? blonde
30) Is acidxrose a high school student? nope

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 09:32:04 GMT

I live in berkeley now my intended major is psychology i just got a refund for 5160 dlls from the school Iam a little drun kon vodak i had an anxiety attack because laurie has a lot of boxes in the room just laying around and wont get rid of them also i got my attack well my mini attack because i am not with the person i love i just want it to be wednesday so i can deck out our room the way it should be with the furniture i bought at ikea haha I really want to wear my new blazer but it would be pointless because i am in berkeley it allready getting cold i had really good raspberry sherbet today not sorbet but sherbet living in the co-op can be disgusting at times but i realy like it the big kitchen the enviorment its really fun and there is alwaus something new going on i was suposed to read for my classes but i refused to i rather drink vodka because i really enjoy that and listen to awsome music like madonna vouge or prince or brazilian girls i miss adrian and my dog camilo my junior year in highschool was the best i really want to go to aspen in december to visit my friend Luz from argentina i love her i am so glad that marlene is in paris she belongs there wait and renne but she doesnt belong there though but im glad she is there

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 05:45:15 GMT

I'm back from europe and I'm married

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 18:03:58 GMT

Im at work and Im broke Y have no money to go t europe which is in 6 days. My mom got back from france yesterday and she had fun. Im glad she did not forget to bring Camilo's bracelet/collar. She didnt buy me anything because I told her not to. Eventhough im 18, im very busy and i forget things like my mother but the thing is she is 40 and has 2 kids I am not 40 nor do I have kids but I am in love so maybe that is it. I went to go visit adrian at URBN twice and it was wierd, wait no , he is wierd. SO i bought this fake ID and I went to this bar the other day and they did not even dare aske me for my ID. On saturday someone told me they thought i was 23/24 and that same person laughed in a good way because im dating someone who is 23. It is not good when you dont get enough sleep, ive been driving all day and ive ben falling asleep at every single stop light. Im not really sure if I should get a new psycologist when I mov eup to berkeley or should I just call mine, but then how would I pay him ?? would I need to pay him ?? I have nothing ready for my trip, no hotels no airplane tickets; i just have my ticket from lonodn to amsterdam but thats it im just flying and daydreaming and Im not worried at all the worst that coul dhappen is that i sleep in the street; i mean i did it already in europe and in berkeley why not again !?!

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 02:11:33 GMT

club maya on friday july 1st was out of my world, we left at 7am because the club had to close. the after party was not so cool but the apartment was great, the view was amazing.
i really like dancing, i have to go dance atleast once a week and i have to go eat seafood tacos also atleast once a week.
i have not seen a lot of my friends, and I believe it is my fault. Ive been busy and Im not using that as an excuse im just saying
Im having a scar removed july 12, it's all about having nice shoulders, don't you think ??
so I'm going to europe August 1st and I return August 15. If I don't see people before August 1st its very likely I wont see them again because Im off to berkeley August 24 and the days between Agusut 15 when I return and august 24 will most likely be spent with my family and my someone.

weekend getaways

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 06:40:26 GMT

* maison 140

* astro burger

* ameoba music or was it records

* beverly hills

* da pasquale

* small shower

* wine

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 06:14:56 GMT

Well right now, today I'm really good. I am very happy and well. I got my results of my EWP test and I failed it so I have to take the stupid english class. I think im just going to take it during the summer in southwestern college, and im so good that this does not affect me what-so-ever. Im back to working everyday of the week which means I will be making 500 dlls a week !! oh yeah I know it's really good and amazing, I KNOW. Im going to LA for the weekened next week and I'm going to eruope in agusut but just for 15 days lame lame lame (see I said it 3 times which means im very serious that its lame). adrian is lame because he didnt have his party but at the same time I wanna wish my best friend (adrian) happy birthday and that I love that guy. you should have seen how happy he was to see his favorite band, the faint, on saturday... im so tired of not sleeping right now I have not had decent sleep in few days + weeks ...

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 04:59:31 GMT

the worst thing that can happend to someone is that your past decides to take a peek back into your life right now !!! this someone I knew for 2 days decides to send me a message after months of not saying words and so it seems this someone saw me at some on saturday with my someone right now and not did that person see me but that person knows the name of my someone right now !!! FUCK that is wierd and scary.

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 00:38:57 GMT

Memories of events:
69
id-millenium
i capture the castle
shower
la gran cava
palm springs
mai tai
vodka tonic
long islands
sun & heat
f street
carl's jr

Wed, 25 May 2005 03:44:31 GMT

I do not want to live in Unit1, can you imagine a building full of people and they all go to the same bathroom and just a shit load of people all there, I don't... I guess this is what the college experience is about but I do not want that. Carrying my hsit always to the bathroom and then having to wear sandals when you shower so I won't get a fungus then worrying I might get some wierd disease. My mom told me she was not going to pay anything from my college. I think it's perfectly fine. I will have to get a job which is great. Tomorrow is my last day of highschool, after 5 years of being in school in mexico, italy and now america. I'm excited as hell I really want to have fun on friday and thursday. I have a problem with myself right now. I dont know what happens to me when I'm in a "relationship" i'm not the same person, you know all wierd and wild and loud and I don't know if that is a good thing. Im just worried I guess it might affect me and how I relate myself to the perosn im with in the relationship. I slept the other day with the fan and now my throat is hurting like a little sneaky father fucker. i am no longer going to this great party I wanted to go on saturday, I had thought it was on friday but it turns out it was on saturday and I leave for palm springs on saturday so I can't make it FUCK. I'll just have to make up for that party thursday and friday right. so already people are coming back to san diego. i hope to see all these people soon and dance and have a fun time. I guess I'll see them at adrians second edition party @ club hilltop. it's going to be the place to be for the high class artists and big time drinkers. are you either one of those?? if not you have some time to become one or if you can handle it both of them.
girls keep your legs crossed and guys keep your zippers up

recap

Wed, 18 May 2005 04:59:53 GMT

wow you guys (am I really talking to you guys?) so friday was so awsome I went to this place and they had this really good electronic music, i got home at 5 in the morning, the person that I wanted to go did not go but it was alright that person was sick so i just danced with new people and by myelf. I had an awsome time seriously. saturday I hadmy english placement exam and holy fuck I was sleepy. the lady had to wake me up 3 times and when I turned my test in, she gave me this motherly look and said to me in a sweet voice "get some sleep" haha but I couldn't because it was my younger brothers first comunion with christ. I saw part of the movie suicide club, this japanese movie and it was different and I liked what I saw. I also saw the movie birth and let me tell you that it was an emotionally intense movie and that I enjoyed it. one should watch it if one has the time. thursday is gradnite and im bummed because my friend marlene peralta is not going she is being a fuckhead and she didn't pay on time. that situash got laterd (did I say that right?) so really all I'm looking forward to is friday at multikulti seb fontaine live, fuck that will be great.. dance dance oh yeeeeeah

haha some people just don't believe what they read these days on other peoples AJ's

a few things you may not know about me

Sat, 07 May 2005 02:37:22 GMT

*the only person I truly love in this world is Luz Nuñez, she's from argentina
*I kissed a 35 year old women once and I loved it, she was great(I don't mean the kiss, her as a person)
*I'm not really liking the idea of international business, I'd rather study psychology
*I've never been in a serious relationship
*I had sex with adrian castañeda,which leads me to be...
*i've been only once to safaris in downtown mexico, and I liked it because it was trashy and had no dress code
*my first sexual encounter was at 14
*I shower with my dog
*i know i say I dont eat chicken, but I do from this place in downtown and it's a sandwich

in lomosines we have ...

Wed, 04 May 2005 03:41:47 GMT

2 years in a row I bail out on coachella, this years reasons made me seem less insane that last years "uhh I don't know really I just didn't go". as oppose to this years "I have my french ap test monday, I have no money for the car or for sustaining myself (food+water)". what sucks is that nobody went to go see miss kittin. I was very stressed on friday night not knowing what to do but after going out and meeting up with another human being and interacting it was all A-OK, I went to the movies and saw this interesting independant movie about some guy that wants to go to jerusalem. after the movies go grab a beer. then comes the part where i say "you would think that tijuana is full of dark allies but NO, it's not, where are they when you need them?" I managed, fortunaley i was able to manage and conform myself with my non-alley location. the reason to which why i was searching for an alley is to remain unsaid. saturday i went to work and was completly exhausted no idea why but i just was. my french ap test was long as hell but my calculus test today was longer shit I hate having about 1.30 hours of nothing to do, seriously I napped but then I could nap no more I was sick of napping all I wanted to do was burn the fucking test.after that math test I went to work and what news do I get "yeah we fired that lady we had hired one week ago" WHAT??? more work more work !!! = stress stress. Phones were ringing, explanations had to given on why our president of the company was out and work still had to be done. but I made it home after passing the mad traffic of the so called freeways of tijuana and what I get when I get to my grandmothers house? CHICKEN, they had made chicken so all I could eat was rice. I was tired hungry and I needed my drink and all I got was a 15 mintue nap and rice. I finally come home and prepare a tuna salad and some olives but still no drink and I have nothing to drink because I have no money and I have no money because I crashed the car and I ordered a 130dollar essay online. all I had left in hopes of recupurating from this pain was to SHOWER, yes oh yes to shower and oh man did it help. one hour and a half is almost as good as having 2 glasses of wine or a margarita or a vodka tonic.

the train of the midgits

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 05:10:28 GMT

I hope that peoples lives are going as planned or close to. I hope that they are getting what they need from their experiences. Doesn't it seem that when you look at people it seems like you are dreaming ? it happens to me a lot times. I just feel like I need to dance because life is one big carnaval. Surviving every day life is also an uneasy task, well atleast to me it seems that way at times. Fighting against that bulk of people that just don't need you or are just there to fuck with you or maybe not people but other obstacles. Saturday at 4am I have to knock knock on marlenes door because we are off to coachella. I'm a 1st timer, haha. I bought a radio at target the other day and let me tell you people it was a real "ganga"' 40bucks can get you a radio with: cd player, 2 alarms, detachable left speaker and lcd backlight + it's very thing and very light and modernooo ! As of right now I'm exctied about coachella, it just barely hit me right now how awsome it should be... not going to school is very soothing.

www.chorreate.com I hope you're wearing underwear when you see this, you might need it

"i'm glad that I hold a place in your life"

je ne sais pas qua je dois que faire avec toi

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 06:40:03 GMT

Finally I'm back to work, damn I need the money so bad!!! so school is coming to an end and each day I realize how soon the day of leaving tijuana and san diego is getting closer and closer. SHIT life is so great and it sucks that some people do not realize it. so much positive energy around us and we don't realize it or take advantage of it. I was so frustrated last saturday I was stuck in oakland because they fucked up our flight reservation and I needed a drink so bad and the bar was closed!!! man that night I was loaded with stress and anger. but I managed I went out on sunday and it all was better. saturday my friend from italy is coming to SD and shes staying in the youth hostel in downtown. I'm really not liking this portfolio thing really it's just a pain in the ass. Talking about pains in the ass I went to go see miss congeneality today with my sister and it was very funny, I needed that laugh. Gradnite is 80 DOLLAS wtf is that about? I mean yeah I wanna go but I really do not want to pay, but i think im going besides I'll have my wheelchair so me and mar mar marlene won't have to wait in line with all the other MC SUCKAS.

"don't think that what you see in the mirror is what you really are, it's just the refelection of what people see not of what YOU are"

alcohol is not bad

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 23:53:03 GMT

I really do not want to write in this journal anymore I have come to the point where I sign on and read the journals of others and just sign out becasue I refuse to journalize my days. I'm having a really good time with my friend right now, it has been great times, talking and sharing experinces. I have had a some days with stress but I have managed to wash it away with wine. I recieved the acceptance of Fordham University, it's a jesuit school in new york. this was what I was waiting for, going to college in the east coast!!! and in new york! i mean could it get any better ? the problem is that I don't know how much financial aid I would get or grants and in berkeley i would get close to 23,000$$$ in aid. so really the decision is not that difficult. Besides i can fly home anytime. I'm going up to berkeley this weekend with my mother to see housing and just so she can see around and know where I'm going to college I don't know if she will help me move in, most likely she won't. My friend adrian published a conversation he and I had and I was not mad at all I was just a little "wtf is this about?" haha I was acutally worried that nayeli might say something but she just wanted "more, more, more". What has this world come to? what happened with privacy ? conversations ENTIRE conversations published on the net ??? HAHA (this is me trying to make drama). I ordered my english essay online in this good website doctortext.com and they make custom essays, mine cost 132DLLS. the price i pay for laziness but also I'm not that much of a good writer so hey in order to get an A I'll do almost anything. Does anybody ever feel the need to see a therapist ?

home sweet home

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 02:54:53 GMT

I would have never thought I would say this but it's good to be back home in Tijuana... After being 1 week in russia, it was more than enough, other than the accident it was a good trip. I Got home at 2.30am i didn't really sleep because I slept the 15 hours from moscow to los angeles so I was just tired from the plane. the first thing I did was SHOWER (mhm). then I watched TV until i fell asleep. I went to the mail today and I found out i got accepted into ucberkeley!!! i was rejected to the other schools (all ivy leauge)

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 08:56:28 GMT

it seems as if this were the worst moment ever to wrtie in this thing but it's not in moments like these is when things seems most clear, Im in russia were a lot of people dont speak english and the worst imaginable happens, my little brother gets hit by a car and he is now n ht ehospital FORTUNATELY and thank God he is alive and OK but why am i writting this ? so people can realize how life is so unceretain and how we should not spend our time worrying about stupid things or things that don't matter. the greaTES EXAMPLE THAT COMES TO MY MIND IS ADRIAN WIT HIS DRAMAS, HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT HE SPENDS A LOT OF HIS TIME MAKING DRAMAS, ITS NOT POSSIBLE. PEOPLE NED TO LIVE THEIR LIVES FULLY, WHO CARES WHAT OTHERS THINK AND KEEP WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT TO YOU CLOSE TO YOUR HEART AND KEEP IT THER FOREVER, YOU FAMILY, YOUR EXPERIENCES, RELATIONSHIPS OF ANY KIND. A LOT OF PEOPLE HAVE TO LEARN TO DETACH THEMSELVES FROM THINGS INCLUDING EXPERINCES ANF FRIENDS DONT THSE BE OBSTACLES SO THAT YOU CAN LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST. ABSORB THEN LET GO...
i'VE HAD ALREDY 2 DEFINING EXPERINCES AND iM NOT SAYING THAT SO THAT PEOPLE CAN FEEL SORRY OR TO SHOW OFF, I'M JUST SAYING BECASE FORTUNATELY I HAVE REALIZED THIS And because i love my friends and family i wanna share this so that other people can realize so that they won't continue their lives with the wrong mentality that will not taKE THEM FAR

when in rome

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 17:52:15 GMT

i saw the pope today and he said nothing
me feet are tired and my nose is running
my hand has a watch that does not work but it cost 10€, so who cares
I miss a few people but the wine makes up for i
In russia vodka will make up for thos people
I leave tomorrow for russia
real fur coat ??? maybe
maybe not
it's raining today
I thought of chrisite today because i saw a lot of fake LV bags and GUCCI bags too
I think i might get a fake one and show it off to christie $1000 vs 20€

sipping on my naked juice

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 07:10:22 GMT

this week-ending was exquisite. like a strawberry on thop of the sundae, I know they put cherries but I don't like cherries so i had change it. Friday was the walkthon and i was not about to go and waste a prefect useful day in rwar park. so i went to work, i love working. it was either go to the walkthon or make $100 ? yeah i know it was not a tough decision at all. came home from work and took one the greatest showers, all my showers are great but this one in particular was amazing i guess cause I was really tired from work. saturday i went to work too and i had a rough day. afer work i had to go the hospital and visit my aunt because she got a makeover from her waist up, scary. i came home ate chinese food and showerd and oh my was it beautiful. before i showered i turned the computer on(one of my habits i can't seem to get rid of) and i find myself with a pleasent surprise, my friend was haing a party.!!...i go to SD talk to marcys parents and go off to melis house i was the for 1 hour cause I had come back to TJ for the party. the tj party was like no other, it had been quite a while since i had that much fun at a party. I'm thankful for saturday.so my aunt got a total make over from her waist up and shes at my grandmas house and it's just so fucking painful looking at her, she can't open here eyes, here ambomen hurts like it's on fire, here eyse are like bleeding, here head is itching like a bitch too and she can't scartch it cause it's all with bandages. so much for getting a nose job.

you wetback, you spick

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 04:40:01 GMT

i got back from washington on saturday like at 3, the flight from atlanta to san diego was very uncomfotable. the week in WASDC was pretty cool, i had fun and met some cool people. it was prettie cold though, it snowed but it was nice with the snow and all, i was prepared.i think it's going to be puerto rico and miami this summer too, well hopefully. i had some work to catch up so i ended up giong to bed at 1.30 yesterday or today whatever suits your fancy. saturday is the walkthon and i don't plan on going to it or to school so i made a little letter of my own from my own "personal" doctor.haha. i went to the movies today and i saw the movie of neverland with jonie deep and i liked it, good movie. i still have not seen the dreamers. that really is not cool. oh and while in DC we went to this french bistro and i ate escargot, it was really good all i needed was a glass of wine and it would have perfect. i realized that i have 32 days of school left, time is running and it's only getting faster. i have 7 days before i get off for srping break. i need to pack for my trip i gotta buy warm shit or else my @@s is gonna freeze
comming soon... SNAP SNAP PHOTO TIME and turn this way adjust the light or should I say adjust my face.

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 06:40:04 GMT

mixed feelings? yes
tired? yes
wine? almost half a bottle
flying anywhere? to washington dc on saturday for a week
angry? yes
work? i got home until 730 from work and from doing worky shit
I sitll have to pack all my stuff but i'm very excited and fascinated that marlene is going to leon for college, yes thank you very much I am going to go visit her hopefully in july. I bought my suit yesterday at macys and i really like it and i bought this really aswome black tie that it seems like it's on fire, maybe some fo the fire might rub onto me. today i saw christies dad playing golf in a small piece of grass outside the "bodega". i was assigned who my mentor for my portfolio is: my french teacher; the lady who gave me a detention for sleeping in class! UGH. all i need right now is to shower and go to bed i'm all worn out, i wish i felt like this for other reasons but nope not today or as things are going anytime soon. i feel like going out and having fun, shit some person invited me to this really cool party here in TJ, at some dj's house total elcltroclash but no no i have to go go washDC sucks ... what ? you think I'm 21 ? haha no I'm only 18. oh this guy from work he;s a photographer on his spare time and he has some really good shoots. i really like pictures where you can't see the face or the whole face. he siad that if i wanted a portfolio he would be more than happy too.

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 05:01:42 GMT

i waited one dammed hour outside some fucking club called tangaloo and after that hour I said fuck it I'm n ot waiting one more second out here so i went to safaris and msyterys in downtown TJ. It is so fucking white trash, very trashy but HILLARIOUS, all the amriecan gringos wasted puking and shit and then girls taking their tops off and shit but I liked it, I liked it cause it's so trashy, i can wear whatever I hate the whole dress code thing and then 15dlls and you get all the drinks you want. whatever I like the trashy scene, i mean maybe not really all the white people but whatever. i went to a friends art show yesterday and it was just great, chrisite came with me and we went to ghirardelli before and then to the show and we just sat on the sofa and chatted. my friends art is really great but too expensive.
whatever saturday was cool. today was lame, I just finished writing my personality paper for mrs.anthonys class, WTF !?!? bleegghh....
so saturday I'm off to washington dc and I'm back the 5th.I hope that thing is entertaining...

the 411

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 03:32:11 GMT

I like the summer. I like both people. I have 2 childhood friends. My dogs name is Camilo Valentino. He is bling blingy. I like black. I also brown and blue and gold and silver. I like sunglasses too. The big kind of sunglasses. Going to downtown is great. Before 6th avenue use to be a great street now it's all about kettner. I really don't like going to clubs. I'd rather go the movies, cafe or eat out. I really like italian food. I really do not eat mexican food. I speak english-spanish-italian-french fluently. I like to speaks french&italian when I'm drunk. I like to drink wine-martini-vodkatonic-champagne. Showers satisfy me. Chocolate is one of the best things ever. I can't forget about sunday champagne brunches. I think pink is a cool color. Rainy days are pretty sexy. I realized that today(rainy days). I think sex is a good thing. everybody has sex or eventually will have sex. I don't always get turned on with porn. I think my smile is the only good thing that I got going for me. Sometimes I feel that I'm mature for my age. Other times I realize i'm so dumb. CPK is really good. Boudins is great too. Avocado sandwhich,please. I rarely have dreams. 1st I was totally emotion free. Thinking relationships are not for me. Especially at this point in life. Because I'm 18. too young to commmit. Now after I found someone. I totally went free. Accepted what I felt. But I was rejected. OUCH. I have 2 childhood friends. They rock. WORD!. I'm was emotion free because I am afraid. it always is because of that. you hide behind your fears. I'm going to coachella this year. I was dumb enough not to go last year. Line up was better back then. I think that the kid josh from school is like an unknown secret. A good secret full of things that would amaze. I like water> mineral water too, thank you very much. I think bjork is great' her lyrics make think if life in general. I miss my friends. I can't wait till I graduate.